who am I?
the short version:
I'm Silvia, aka CosmicTailz! I draw stuff with a keyboard and mouse, make music using tracker software, cuss with my hands and mouth, and occasionally do other things! I'm transgender and pansexual and my pronouns are she/her :3
the long version:
↑ Ditto, you can also call me Tailz, Silv, CTZ, or whatever else you think would fit.
my interests
Now comes the part where I have to recall my interests, oh god... uhh... oh yeah, I'm really into racing games and sci-fi. I grew up playing Mario Kart Wii and eventually discovered F-Zero at the age of 7, I thought the latter was a one-off until I discovered F-Zero Maximum Velocity a few years later through 3DS eShop videos, and eventually I started exploring the rest of the series during the early 2020s. It shortly gained a throne at the top of my favourite franchises right next to Mario Kart.The sci-fi half of my interests was kinda hidden away from me for a while, but it's always been there. I didn't know it at the time, but F-Zero was its first sign of really showing through. As I grew up and became more enthralled by computers and technology in general, it continued to stick out to me more and more, but I still didn't quite see it. That was until my parents introduced me to Star Trek in early 2026... The first show we started watching together was Starfleet Academy, the one that (unfortunately) got review bombed by anti-wokesters or something. I felt pretty captivated by the realistic concepts shown throughout, and I ended up wanting more out of it, leading to us watching through Discovery after season 1 of the show ended, eventually The Next Generation as well, my Dad's personal favourite (and I can see why!)
What else, what else... *rustles through metaphorical filing cabinet* OOH! Tracker music, that's a big one.
tracker music
As with many others, probably, my first exposure to tracker music was through Fearofdark's famous "Rolling Down The Street, In My Katamari". I wasn't really into it until a few years down the line, I think in mid-late 2024(?), I was working on a sandbox game on Roblox Studio late in the evening and decided I needed some music to listen to, so I opened YouTube to pick something from one of my playlists, but something caught my eye in my recommended feed right before I clicked: Elwood - Dead Lock, uploaded by MrNobbyNobbsjr. Out of curiosity, I went to check it out... it was the most heavenly thing I'd ever heard. Their whole channel was a goldmine, and soon enough I had a playlist full of 20-something-year-old tracker modules that I still listen to frequently, and it single-handedly pulled me through my last year of high school and inspired me to start making more original music.digital art
Digital art is also something I dabble in quite a lot. Prior to doing stuff with a keyboard and mouse, I'd already been drawing pictures every now and then on pencil/pen and paper for years. I still do, and I'm pretty decent at it, though not nearly as frequently. The earliest I'd started doing stuff digitally was at the age of 8-10 I think, my Dad brought a scrapped Windows XP tower into the house from work, and while I do mostly recall using it for playing CD-ROMS and whatnot, I also have some memories of doodling stuff in MS Paint and making pictures in Word docs using shapes and lines. The two most vivid ones I've got are of me drawing a pixelated Donkey Kong logo in Paint (and later seeing how JPEG compression ruined it after my Dad discouraged me from saving everything as bitmaps) and making a mural of Yoshi Village from the "Super Mario Adventures" comics from Nintendo Power magazine.Later on, that old WXP machine broke, and we got another scrap tower with Windows 10 installed. With the little time I had where the tower had internet access, I downloaded Scratch 2.0 onto it, along with a couple games that I liked. Of those were griffpatch's Geometry Dash recreation (which has since been taken down), Scratch Party by JakeTheProgrammer, a Mario Kart animation featuring Steve from Minecraft, and a project where you could press the arrow keys to make a Flipnote frog dance to a remix of Red Zone with Flipnote noises playing over it. While I used Scratch mainly to program silly little games and stuff (which are unfortunately long-gone by this point), it also gave me an opportunity to explore bitmap/vector art via the sprite editor. I didn't do a whole lot of it, but it was there, I guess.
Rolling directly past the brief period in 2019-2020 when I descended into weebery and became incredibly indecisive about my identity, I eventually wrapped back to using MS Paint to make pixel art. After a while though, I grew tired of not being able to use transparency for small sprites, and I started looking for alternatives. That's when I came across Paint.NET, a godsent image editing program that I stuck with for years. I still use it for pixel art and background FX to this day (I used it to make the sidebar and little icons on this site!), though I ended up having to drop it for making higher-effort stuff after Microsoft really started pouring bleach into Windows 11 during 2025, which made it run terribly on my main PC. Since I'd lobotomoized my laptop earlier in the year and installed Linux Mint onto it, I decided to look for a viable alternative that'd work on both. Now I use Krita! It took some getting used to due to it being a "professional" art program with extensive brush customization and stuff that I never cared for, but eventually I got it set up to work pretty similarly to how Paint.NET did.
Last updated August 4, 2026.